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I do drama A level and some of the teaching techniques used are so out there it's silly.

A teacher set off the fire alarm 3 times in a lesson to teach the class about intent.When they knew the Alarm was fake they didn't react anywhere near the same...sounds like a very good teaching technique but still pretty weird.

However,it gets better....My current tutor is pretty zany and in a conversation a few months ago I explained rituals to him and he seemed pretty animated about the idea.
It was until this week that I realised why....

Every lesson we have a warm up -some silly game to get the dramatic muscles lubed up- well this lesson we were going to "magic cultists" that are obsessed with fire and every aspect of it.We were all giving an emotion to portray and the teacher was the Ritualist.

"I seal this firey circle" he bellows
(sadly no checking of the seal, anything could have got through ;))
He then asked Brogan to get on her knees in the middle of the circle and started asking her why she thought she was worthy of becoming a fiery demon/entity/ifrit and he then asked every student to come forward and give their aspect to her in the form of a movement and line of speech. (like the fairies in sleeping beauty)
I was greed so I crawled at her from outside the circle whilst looking at everyone else surreptitiously and I SCREAMED.
"As the Internal fire of greed burns wanting more and more...SO SHALL YOU"
Lots of very cool stuff happened and It wasn't until becky (awesome girl) came forward gyrating and offering Brogan "Her fiery loins" that I realised we were doing a bloody ritual FROM LARP...

OMGWTFTHETUTORCOMPLETLYSTOLETHATFROMME!

But still it was SO COOL...Easily a ten ;)

I've asked if next lesson I can be a ritualist :)

In other news....

ITS MY BIRTHDAY SOOON!!!!
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

And I got a new laptop yesterday....
it has vista...
YUCK!

Elemental control...

There's something about the passion of nature which intrigues me...
^ I'm so going to write a poem about that :)

I LOVE BENS EMAILS....

He sent me a proper long froth/catch up email and at the very end he managed to slip in a quick advertisement....

DYSON OBSESSED VACUM CLEANER STRUMPET!



 


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 Yeah, When I went to see the solicitor she suggested that I gun for the head of After Care for negligence and allowing what has happened to me actually happen...

I decided no, I'm better than gunning for one person...

However, I have now been waiting two weeks for a singular five minute E-mail so I'm Fuck her...
I'd be doing the world a favour.....

All though I do hate the whole office politics thing....

Right...I have seen a solicitor today I also have my local MP on the case I also have a meeting with The director Of Children's Services on wednesday and The Chairman of NCAS is on the case and the Childrens Right's Society are all over it too...

*GASP* 
So LOTS of peoples...
I don't think I ever truly realised how bad our country is for Bureaucracy However I am kicking many asses and taking many names :) 

Meanwhile, there's no news on my dying mother...

I connect far to much to music...
Florence and the machine has been my crutch these last few weeks...
those moments when I'm down and out and I'm just about to quit it all and she just pipes up and inspires me...

Well The whole housing thing is on the move.....
Instead of being epically trampled I decided to fight so I compiled a kickass letter and sent it to as many people as possible.
Salvador is in a meeting with our MP NOW! and I have a meeting with The man in charge of Blackpool Council on tuesday...I've also managed to get myself an Advocate from the Childrens services...
If anyone knows anyone that may be interested in my story I'll pass my letter on to you :)
Spread the word ;) 


Looked After Child is NOT  synonymous with pushover.

I hope I can make a dent :) 


other than that college = MEH MEH MEH 

and I really wish to larp

I have news off AfterCare...

As of 28th November I am completely alone financially....

I will be on Benefits and completly living on my own.
I'm shitting myself slightly...

Could someone please just come fix everything for me?

In other news...
People are keeping me on my feet I recieved some really nice messages from really nice people.
this makes me happy
I'm going to grab my shit and fly with the punches and try my upmost to get my life in gear...
I'm so bloody determined that all this shit won't hold me back....
I just hope I'll have enough strength to last through this...

After a remark of my Drama My predicted grades for UNI are..

AAB :) 

I'm going to apply for Oxford...
I don't want to go there...
but just to see If I can

This song played AS LOUD AS POSSIBLE is the most inspirational thing I've ever heard <3

http://www.last.fm/music/Florence%2B%252B%2BThe%2BMachine/_/Hospital+Beds?autostart

I still have NO news off the powers that be to find out How relevant I am.
Never mind that I have the potential to go to oxford or cambridge .

I sometimes wonder If I as meant to live.

Every saviour that has come along has failed me, and it looks like my family demons are about to rear there ugly heads...
I hate this time of year.
Why is there so much emphasis on being happy and having a healthy family life?
I have yet to meet somebody that has had a perfect family....So why do the media feel the need to force this image so harsly into our faces...
As of December 2NDIt has been a year since I have seen any family members...

I Feel broken hearted an It's taken me this long to realise this...I just can't seem to get over the whole situation....

The best counselling I've ever had is this Blog 'cos people read it and when I'm down I don't have to talk about it and It's all already off my chest...
I'm slowly becoming ne of those internet depressive types...
But I'll go off and have a happy day now I have ranted....
I'm going to write a poem titled

"The endless fall of the saviour"

watch this space
:) 

Does anybody know how to find people?
I've never met my father and would love to hunt him down just to see what's what really....
Apparently you can do this over the internet and apart from google I'm a bit poop at it...
I only have very few details about him...
His name's greg dunn
And he's in his 50's now
he was in the army (iserlhon germany) in 1991....

anyone know anything

I have lots of people reading my blog ERGO I am awesome :) seeing as It was initially just the odd larper now I have a following :D 

So last weekend was OK....Ben seems to be getting funnier although I don't think he'll ever top his cover of fame which made me cry.We spent all friday night just talking about stuff and life and I read his mind twice (I'm so getting better at this) then Liss popped into the tent and went to sleep bless her :) 
Saturday was fun....El ran some of the most AWESOME plot I have ever been involved in and I can't wait to do it again...
I really like ben and liss as group mates...I was worried I'd be a bit of a burden but It's worked out really well :) Now I just want lolly and el to join up and I'm happy :)
The catering crew were awesome and I had a good laugh helping out in the kitchen.
subsequently, I REALLLY want an RAF coat like captain jack harkness' coat 'cos dave had one and it was SOOO cool :) 
If anyone fancies it (HOLLIE PATTISON AND NATALIE WILSON) my Birthday is the 28th of november and I would prefer the coat with john barrowman in it :) 
yummmm.....John barrowman

I'm just about to send off my final university application and get me some sweet chilli chicken with bread on...
Peace out homies

I now have had a running total of FIVE people openly declare there love of thomas to him in bid to steal him from me...

Now, I'm not worried about thomas as we're better than that...
but in what context is it OK to openly try and steal someone's other half?

Is it a gay thing?
Do straight people get them same stick?

What am I supposed to do in retort?
Allow them to declare their undying love or act defensive and be labelled as controlling...

I REALLY REALLY hate gay society so much....
All the hard work people have put in so we can have rights and be open about who we are and we've turned it into a farce....

GRRRR!

If you saw ME in a police car, what would you think I got arrested for? Answer me, then if you want, post to your own journal and see how many crimes you get accused of.

I'm currently In a good mood....
Despite certain factors.
I may be homeless as of my 18th birthday however the higher management in social services are thinking about whether or not it is approriate to keep an A grade student in their care past 28 so I can carry on and make something of myself...
For those of you interested the Care system only caters for people who wish to under achieve.If I had a child no gcses and no ambition I would have funding up to my ears but sadly because I'm trying to make something of myself The care system doesn't wish to support me in any way :/
I'm expected to work If i want to stay at college...Which would be fine If I wasn't at college for MOST of the time.I'm hoping i can just jump this hurdle and make it the 9 months between now and university hopefully,when I'm at Uni I'll be able to live off loans.
Also I didn't get the part i the play I auditioned Whilst gaining feedback I was told that my singing was ok my acting was EXCELLENT but I don't give enough? 
What's that supposed to mean...What don't I give?
My confidence in my acting ability just took a nose dive...I hope for goodness sake that It picks up because If I let the group down I may just die..

Recently though people have been really picking me up...Ben managed to sort out a lift (thanks El and rachel) which even though is a small thing really cheered me up...
It's the little things in life isn't it?
Also thomas is a never ending conduit of love  and peace.I honestly have NO idea what I would do without him.No matter what he's just there with his big grin willing to listen to me rant.
He even surprised me completly out of the blue to a candle lit meal the other day.
It was the sweetest thing...I actually felt like crying.

Also I spoke to my nan, which for those people that know IS WEIRD.
Apparently my mothers cancer has turned into something hostile...Which made me go through some weird feelings  at first I was happy Then I felt sick and I wanted to cry then I felt nothing which made me feel disgusted with myself because i felt nothing...
Not entirely sure what to make of it ll in all but If she was to die then It'd probably do my little brothers a huge favour...
Seeing as Social services didn't think it a good idea to put them into care because mother never hit them...
Where the hell is the logic in that?

I'm looking forward to the jackals event...Frothing with Ben and Liss, and he menu looks pretty good 8-)




WHAT?! I was only going to post like a few lines out of boredom...
musta had a lot on my chest...
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Jackals Event I'm stuck in the North (manchester area) and I have lost my travel buddies so it's just little old me trying to get there...
would anybody be able to give me a lift I'm more than happy to contribute to petrol I would get a coach but it's £40 and I miss a large amount of the event...

Feel free to pass this on..
Chris

Just Auditioned for the College Show This Year...
It Went Great....
Turns Out I'm Even Better At Singing Than I Thought...

Thought It'd Be Good To Brush Up On my performance If I'm going to be doing rituals...

So Yeah...You OWE me ben :P 

I Speak Blog More...

AND MUCH LOUDER!

munch on my capitals bitch..

:)